Falling into traps

Last night I almost fell into my old pattern. I knew this morning was going to be busy and my schedule looked border line too much. While watching TV, it started to creep into my mind. Would I stay on top of it? Would I get stressed? I started to get restless, I started to […]

Satisfaction is short lived, or is it?

After achieving ‘maximum’ the other day, when I was able to devote my time entirely to one responsibility, I really felt satisfaction. I felt satisfied that I had done that one task to my absolute best. I was happy, my daughter was happy and my husband was happy (my son was his usual challenging self and […]

Maximum

Today, I was just Mum. I wasn’t an employee, or a colleague, or a coach, or an athlete, or a cleaner, or a shopper. I was just Mum and it was amazing. I was able to do it properly to my standards. I watched every race. I fixed the hair. I retrieved the forgotten things. I baked […]

Minimise to maximise

Today, I caught up with a friend who has a very similar brain wiring to me. We discussed many things. One of which, was the fact that when you are wired as we are, you have to minimise the number things you get involved in, in order to preserve yourself. This is because of our […]

So I am addicted to feeling important?

Why do I feel like I need to be important? and in whose eyes do I need to be important? It has up until now, been a case of wanting other people to think I am important, but not the people I should be worrying about. I want to impress my colleagues, other school mum’s, […]

Am I addicted to cortisol?

So, this is the pattern I have noticed in myself. First, I claim that I want a quieter life, less stress and to find some peace. I cut something out. Then as things start to settle and I have more time to myself, suddenly I feel that it is too peaceful, and I take on […]

The perfect storm….

‘Not all storms come to disrupt your life, some come to clear your path’ (author unknown) I do believe this is the case for me……… My ‘midlife crisis’ or the storm I created, is finally allowing me to see clearly. It is allowing me to see the patterns in my life I continue to follow, […]

I turned 40 ……..

So a few months ago I turned 40 and just like the cliche suggests, not long later I had a ‘midlife crisis’ (well at least that is what I am calling it). I lost the plot, I couldn’t go on, I couldn’t cope with work, with sporting commitments, with the kids, with cooking, with running a house. […]