Sometimes I treat myself as if I am super woman. I lay down these expectations that are unrealistic and often unattainable. It is not until someone points this out, that I realise I am killing myself trying to be super human.
The interesting thing is the way in which I do this to myself. I am completely convinced that anyone else would be able to do what I am expecting of myself. I convince myself that if I can’t manage it, I must be in some way defective or a failure.
But guess what………………….. I am only human! I will get things wrong and I won’t always do things perfectly, but neither will any of us (although there are of course those that will try and tell us they are perfect!!).
I know I have written about this kind of stuff before and it might seem like I am not learning! Well, perhaps I am a slow learner, but I do think I am slowly but surely improving and that is the best I can hope for. It would be wrong for me to expect to change overnight. Nor can I say that I want my expectations to be lowered too much. I know that having high expectations of myself is what makes me good at what I do.
What I do hope, is that I can just get them to a more realistic level and not be so hard on myself when I don’t meet them. Importantly, I really need to realise that making mistakes is how you learn. It is not something to be scared or ashamed of. Everyone makes mistakes and everyone learns by them.
You will be pleased to know I let my hair down over the weekend, went out and had some good old fashioned fun. It involved fresh air, friends, family, dolphins, just a touch of alcohol and this amazing sky!