Those who are close to me, know I am in the middle of a big change. It is frightening and exciting all at once. For me this is a big deal. I am leaving behind something that has been a part of my life for 8 years, something I have grown from it’s infancy. Although I feel sad, I know it is time for a new beginning.
New beginnings are the perfect times to reflect and reminisce. To accept what has been, to process and move on to the next phase. It is also a good time for some self regulation and a time to ask some important questions of myself. In the last couple of days I have found myself thinking about what it is that actually drives me. Why do I do what I do?
Before I can move on to the next phase, I am keen to make sure I am heading in the right direction but more importantly, that I am being true to myself and following my own path. I have noticed recently, sometimes my motivation to do certain things is not based on what I believe and value, but what others around me believe and value.
It is time to make sure my only motivation for doing things is because it is what I want to do and that I believe in what I am doing.
The last 2 weeks have been an emotional roller coaster and I am expecting the next few will be too. I need to go easy on myself and not have any big expectations on how this transition is going to go. Even more importantly I need to not have any expectations about those around me. I can not control their words and actions, I can only control the way I react to them.
It might go smoothly, it might not.
I might handle it well, I might not.
As we say at yoga…….. ‘there is no judgment, only observation of what is’